Hey world... can I have a few minutes?

I have a lot on my mind. I don't want to use this platform as a vehicle for complaint so I will try to stay positive. I would like to just ramble for a moment however...
I love to write and read and explore but it seems that when I get back to work I have a hard time doing all of it at the same time yet I cannot stand idle. I frequently... or repeatedly (might be a better word) take a larger portion for my plate and often don't get to eat it all... but I cannot stop.
I started a new job. I like it okay, I say "okay" because I never LOVE my job... it is a means for living - working to live versus living to work. However, after saying that I am so involved in work, marriage and paying off bills/debt that I don't get to live. I started writing religiously for a few weeks and it felt great! Now I haven't been writing very often because I have been thinking about work (which makes me tired). -- I don't know where I was going with all this but I guess more than anything I just wanted to get it off my chest. I know that the possibility of life slowing down, so that I can do all that I dream about, is silly to believe in - especially with kids and completing my masters on the horizon but I would like to try to become more flexible and accommodating of my goals/dreams.
I read about how published writers would write anytime they could: on their lunch hour, late at night after work, with a kid on their lap, etc. I know that kind of discipline would be SO beneficial but I haven't been doing it. Maybe I am just scared... scared that I will invest the time and energy and in the end -- I will suck.
Well I guess that is all I have to say.
Thanks for listening world....................................................................